Restive

Mind racing, foot tapping, I just noticed that I’ve been clicking my pen and I can’t seem to stop. How long have I been making noise? I’m starting to feel like a caricature from The Clash song “Should I Stay or Should I Go”, but instead of agonizing over a lover, it’s my mind that won’t be stilled and is causing my indecision. So many thoughts to process, so many places to be, and will this person ever stop talking?! What person? Doesn’t matter. I’ve stopped listening.

“Take me to another place. Take me to another land. Let me forget all that hurts me. Help me understand Your plan.” I’ve taken Arrested Development’s lyrics and turned them into my own personal plea. But, the thoughts keep coming, the ideas bursting and running through my mind so quickly that my body can’t hold it in and I’m practically shaking. All instincts are heightened and I’m rearing to head, ANYWHERE! Nowhere.

CRASH! BAM! The sound of a picture falling off the wall, that was hung with sticky hooks, grabs my attention and breaks me out of my state of “GO!”. With a startled gasp, I look up and realize the world is not spinning upsidedown. It’s quiet, other than XM radio playing for background noise.